God showed me sth yesterday that really touched my heart. You noe in Hope, we're strongly not encouraged to be in relationships. Due to.... yada yada yada.. There was once where this person came up to me and commented that life would be boring w/out relationships. Like every one arnd you are getting boyfrens but you're here, stuck in church w/out a boyfren.

God showed me sth. Jesus is my lover. Jesus is my boyfren! I'm wooed by God, how He came ALL the way from heaven down to earth, how He's willing even to DIE for me.. now, how many of your 'boyfrens' are willing to die for you? Mine is!! haha. I love Jesus..

And valentine's day is when i officially received Jesus, so effectively, it's my anniversary with God. xD

I went heeren to get a wallet... I figured it's time i get one. Bought one which is really simple and khaki. haha. just the way i wanted. And it's comforting to noe that it's only 3 bucks, cuz i keep losing my wallets...

Just it's time i get a new pencil-box. Hah.

Happy birthday Jean..

How close your frens are to you is act how close you allow them to be.

It's easy to say but hard to apply. Guess i need to learn to open up my life to others. More than juz a peek..

Tomms' vday. Nothing special seriously. If you truly appreciate somebody, you'll make it shown every day. And it's cross-country day.. and mtv asia awards day!! And it's a saturday = church service day!! heh. That's alot stuck in a day.

Happy Birthday Soph..

Suddenly, my college changed its system of having tests on weekends to spring tests and term test. It means, at anytime anywhere you might juz get a test smack in your face. It oso means dat you gotta noe your stuff (all your subjects' stuff) well all the time, everywhere you go. *quote from jacob* 'Brilliant right?'

The only thing i'm happy abt this system is that since i'm taking my 'A's this year, it DOESN'T matter wad grades i get fer CAs, it only matters wad i get fer my 'A's. phew! Thank God.

My scalp is getting dry, prolly due to the fact that i haf to use wax daily. I enjoy using wax. Hah.

It's gonna be hectic man... i can feel it coming. Gees. I'm striving to be a nerd now, instead of that slacker self i am... There are MANY benefits of being a nerd. Yesh!

I haf tis' sudden interest in poems. Hah. Beautiful stuff.

I had a thought for no one's but your ears;
That you were beautiful, and that I strove
To love you in the old high way of love;
That it had all seemed happy, and yet we'd grown
As weary-hearted as that hollow moon.

Have you experienced tis before? That you heard of a joke, and immediately you haf tis person in mind dat you wanna share it to. Seriously, I dun haf many close frens, if there were any in the first place. (But i do noe that there's a bunch of ppl who will stand by me thru' thick and thin.) But i find it hard to relate to ppl. Things i wanna share, they juz get stuck dere in my heart, or in my mind. Perhaps it's due to bad experiences where i've been put down due to wad i've said, thou they aren't wrong stuff. I find it real hard, to get out of tis crap, but i noe i shld, and i muz, somehow. sigh.

Today fer gp lesson, they showed us a video. Love hurts. It's about breakups and heartaches. One weird belief those peeps haf--the more relationships you experience, the more prepared you'd be for the real thing. Erm. 1) The more relationships you experience, thus the more breakups you face, won't they discourage you from believing in love? 2) When will the 'real' thing come? If relationships are treated superficially perpetually, will you be able to learn to take relationships seriously?

Are relationships at this age beneficial?

Take heart my child
There's love out there;
Still, though mild.
So keep thy heart
Pure as rain.
Though like tears it falls;
Yet like crystals it's pure.

I went to skh todae, ONLY to realise dat there's chem remedial TODAY. And we're supposed to bring tys and alkanes n alkenes notes. ARGH. Lotsa stuff happened. But there's no motivation to write. C'mon. Wad do i want? Sympathy?! But i bet you'll sympathise me after wad i've said. Stupid rite? sigh.

Of sleep.

It has always been my hobby to sleep.

It's been a long week, and yesterday was a long day. So i decided to give myself a treat, besides, there's no meeting today. I decided to wake up late. And so i slept. A seemingly longg one. I slept until i can't sleep anymore, if i sleep any more, i'll get headache and stuff. So i got up. To my amazement, the clock on da wall shouts out a mighty 9am. ... You mean, it's only 9am? The power of your biological clock.

But due to lack of sleep fer the week, my body wanted rest. And so i went to 'take a nap' at 12pm. I slept. The more i sleep, the more sleepy i get. The more sleepy i got, the more i slept. And i dreamt, a horribly stupid one. Then i remembered all the homework i have to finish. But i wanna sleep!! In the end, i slept to my fill and guess wad? When i got up, it's only 2pm!! God is gracious. He allowed me sleep and the time to do my homework. Thank You Daddy. :)